The New Normal
Because I have to. Because there are an infinite number of things I want to/need to/must expel from my soul lest I combust under the pressure of it all like so many balloons stomped by children’s feet....
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Her hiccups rise and fall against my chest within the limitlessness of a happy day. A peaceful day. A day stacked upon similar days in sequence for the first time ever. A day in which the light at the...
View ArticleSeven.
I will never forget the first time I addressed him by name. The joy that accompanied it masked all of my fear. He was an early bird too. An old soul determined to make his reappearance before...
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“Your daughter has a 50 percent chance of living. If she lives she has a 50 percent chance of surviving surgery and if she survives surgery she has a 1% chance of being neurologically normal.” Cut and...
View ArticleReflecting light.
shin·y /ˈSHīnē/ Adjective Reflecting light Autocorrect. Shunt becomes shiny. Every time without fail. And I smile because it is. Giggles evoked with such silly perfection. It is what, in the nature of...
View ArticleGalactagogue Granola {vegan}
I’m really bad at following other people’s recipes so when I set out to make lactation cookies last night it’s not surprising I ended up tweaking my own recipe for a galactagogue granola instead. The...
View ArticleBest Feeding.
I’m sorry for judging you. You may have never known it, but I did. I may have never even uttered a cross word aloud but my own thoughts were enough. Everyone knows that breast is best, silly. If you...
View ArticleBack in Business
I don’t know how many shots I got off before I started breathing normally. Before I began to trust myself. Before I let myself enjoy directing her motions, pulling focus and snapping the shutter. 25?...
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Only Child & Single Twin
I’ll never forget his reaction when we told him. Something he had longed for, wished for, begged for, for so long was finally happening. He was going to be a brother. Jeremy & I stole away just a...
View ArticleHow Sweet It Sounds
You push the things they’ve told you out of your mind incessantly. The prognosis and predictions. You live in the span of every moment because you’ve been warned not to dream. You focus on the now...
View ArticleInches and Implications.
He pinches the back of my arms and the lower part of my belly between his fingers as I stand at the kitchen sink, his baby sister slung to my chest. Hands too big to belong to a tiny child and too...
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Ever Since I Put Your Picture In a Frame
Three steps from my bedroom door there is a framed photograph, hung just below eye level of her final ultrasound. My finger pauses on the perfect profile every morning on my way to the bathroom. I...
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Missing Mos
Xavier’s father and I DIY divorced ourselves amicably when he was just three. I can’t say it’s always been perfect but it’s mostly been peaceful and past hurts have been burned up or buried deep enough...
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It Takes a Village {or a Rock Show}
We streamed in the giant doors after the lines had all led in. Up to the security check where the officer smiled, looked in my bag and with a giggle struggled with the best way to pat me down with a...
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Eisley
She’d been at it for a solid 15 minutes, tolerating our requests to activate certain muscles in sequence, mustering every bit of strength and focus she possessed to complete the task of turning her...
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Connected
The water near scalding I scrubbed my skin until I ran out of creams and potions to slather on. Not for cleanliness sake but for the hidden hope that something between the lavender balm and peppermint...
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Super Hero Half Birthday
“A hero is an ordinary individual who finds strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles.” Six Months 182 Miraculous Days 9 lbs 13 oz {8 lbs gained} 22 1/2 inches {8 inches...
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Answered Questions – Volume 1
Since starting Nova’s page we’ve committed ourselves to being an open book and answering any and all questions that come our way (to the best of our ability). We generally answer directly or privately...
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On Faith.
When I met my first husband I was neck deep in Buddhism. My life was lacking something and I wanted to see if a dose of religousness was the thing I needed. I dug into Buddha’s teachings and the...
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I Am Still Standing
Today* was painful. In a silent, stripping, heart wringing way. It was painful. A day marked for remembering the Motherhood of those Mother’s who have lost the very lives that have made them such. I...
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